CLOTHED IN GRACE

I remember the first day I got into Ukraine. Thinking of how long this medical school is going to be. I was already drained of every ounce of energy I had just by thinking about the years it was gonna take to achieve my aim. And this was just the beginning.

The years after that weren’t any easier for me, they became more challenging and difficult. Having heart breaks, feeling you weren’t good enough for the task ahead and doubting myself, asking if even I deserved to really be in med school.

Going through phases where I doubted the existence of God or His love. Falling deep into depression and seeing no way out. I figured ending it all will make the hurt go away and worst of all I pulled away from God and His unending love. Through all this phase I never failed a paper, not because I am smart, but because of grace.

I remember one night filled with so much hurt and bitterness I couldn’t recognize myself. I decided to have a heart to heart with God listening to Kevin Levar ‘A Heart That Forgives’. For the first time in a long time, I felt the rush of love and comfort overpower me and leave me in tears. I reconciled with God and I was clothed in grace.

The feeling of all your wrongs being covered, every tear being caught and all weaknesses being overlooked filled me. I was no longer broken but strengthened. Things didn’t suddenly just change but this time I had a new assurance and a friend with me which is the Holy Spirit.

Seeing myself today and realizing I officially become a medical doctor today, makes me so grateful for grace. I realize it’s what has made me who I am today and I am grateful.

Whatever it maybe that you’re going through, this is just a gentle reminder that ‘GRACE ALWAYS WINS’ no matter what! Be encouraged, xo!

QUANTITY VS QUALITY

I heard a message from a friend and I was moved. When it comes to prayer we often seem to wonder if it matters how good our prayer lives are.

Lets look at it this way, how do we fall in love?

You become friends with a stranger. You realize you wanna talk to them everyday. You smile each time you get a message from them. You feel you’ve hit the jackpot if its a call. It starts from there. You move on to writing everyday, talking about all the random things in life. You get to know them better, learning about their secrets and what makes them who they are. What they hate and what makes them laugh. Now all this is achieved by having communication.

How do we then complain about not feeling God around? Why do we complain its hard to talk to him when we are not even trying to form a relationship with Him. How often do you talk to Him? Is it to fulfill ‘all righteousness’?, is it to make yourself fill better? is it because you need something from Him? Honestly that should not be the case.

To form a relationship with Him its important to give Him the attention He needs. The way you would want your boo all up in your business and spoiling you. You have to spoil Him too, with a good time. God enjoys dates too you know. Take the good book, be on your own enjoy the scenery whiles reading His words. Kneel down and say a prayer to Him. When you roll over in the morning and open your eyes say good morning to Him like you would say to your loved one.

All i am trying to say in this post is, God has feelings too. He wants you to spend time with Him and not just any time. He needs your undivided attention and He needs loads of it. Give it try, form a relationship with Him and try just as much as you would in an earthly relationship.

The Mind

Hey lovelies,

I know it’s been a while now, am sorry about that but finals are almost here so it’s making it hard to keep up, but I definitely haven’t forgotten about you guys.

Today I want to talk about the mind. If it really is as influential as we are told to believe. You know, what ever we want to achieve we think about it first and then work on it . So our mind is an incubator. So yeah it is as powerful as we are told to believe.It will bring out what you put in it. If you put in it positivity it will bear positivity and if you put in negativity, you get negativity in return.

There are a lot of things that can influence your thoughts and all these can be found in the environment you put yourself in. Basically your environment is “The sum total of all surroundings of a living organism, including natural forces and other living things, which provide conditions for development and growth as well as of danger and damage.” according to the businessdictionary.Com.

So now what is in your environment? Is it conducive for you? Is your environment helping you birth your dreams? Or rather is it taking you away from them? Now one of the main things found in our environment are friends.  Are your friends building you up or tearing you down? Are they more concerned about what they will lose when you follow your dream, than helping you grow your dreams? Are their words bringing positivity and direction? or are they doing the opposite?

What are you reading? What are you listening to? What are you watching? Is it empowering you or is it making you doubt yourself? Is it making you see the light at the end of the tunnel? Or is it causing you to give up? Your eyes and ears are windows to your mind.  What you feed them is what will be produced.

So the mind as I said earlier is an incubator keeping and absorbing all that you feed it and sooner or later it’s products are going to be seen.  Lets take a pregnant woman for example, when she takes in seed no one knows, but as she keeps on incubating this seed in her you notice the growth of the seed till finally a child is born. What I am trying to say is, you are what you think about, you are what you feed your mind and definitely your mind is the most powerful incubator there is so feed it positivity and see where it leads you.

I am not saying even with all these, negative thoughts won’t come up. Oh they will come up but it isn’t your responsibility to not accept it. Once you accept that negative thought, it takes root in your mind and that is where the problems begin. So whenever those negative thoughts come up, rebuke them and speak positivity into your mind and life. Move from the environment that inhibits your growth, take the risk, bear the pain and see your dreams materialize.

Ultimately positivity is not just good for the mind, it’s good for your soul as well. My final thought is that the mind is truly as powerful as we are told it is, and with God and positivity there is nothing we cannot achieve.xox

Flaws

I am definitely not perfect. I come with my flaws, i cannot seem to get rid of them. Frankly speaking i have tried but does that make me any less? Definitely not!

There is no perfect human, even if their looks make them seem perfect, they definitely have flaws in other areas. We all have something we are insecure about.

Your flaws are a part of you and you’re just as beautiful with them as you think you would be without them. If you’re black, your black is beautiful,  there’s no need to bleach to become something you’re not! Regardless of your skin tone, you’re beautiful! You got thin lips, so? Baby, you’re beautiful! You are no less than the gentleman or lady who just passed by you.

Fact is, if  you’re not happy about your flaws or if they’re affecting your health in one way or the other and you can work on them by all means, you should. Confidence is key and whatever takes your confidence takes your happiness, so do whatever you can to keep your head high without endangering your health. Example, I have extremely sensitively skin and had a lot of pimples. Yes I was  beautiful then but I didn’t feel I was, so I worked on it. I started taking care of my skin more and taking note of what made me break out. That is accepting my flaws but working to make it better.

Our flaws are part of who we are! Embrace them! Change what you can and own  what you can’t!xo

 

Fortune-Chance

via Daily Prompt: Fortune

Fortune has several meanings. But let’s look at fortune as chance and the way it affects your life. I believe in the supernatural and I associate fortune to the supernatural. I personally believe nothing just happens by chance. I believe that there is a whole lot of influence governing the things that happen to us daily, whether we want to acknowledge it or not.

These are the forces of man and spirits.

In the human realm there are people who influence  what happens to you like your loved ones, your boss, the random person you meet at your local supermarket. The words and actions of these people can either make or ruin your day. They can start a chain reaction of either good or bad fortune. Those above you can easily change your fortune by giving you a promotion or stripping you of a title.

Now spiritually, there are spirits that govern the affairs of men. There are good and evil spirits and they influence man in many ways. The good spirits bring about blessings or good luck as most people put it. The evil spirits on the other hand bring about bad luck and influence a chain of bad events.

Most people have ways or items they believe can clear up bad luck but as a christian i believe in prayer. I believe that prayer can influence the spiritual realm greatly and block the influence or works of the evil spirits. Prayer is a way to talk to the higher authority in the spiritual realm, that is God and He is able to stop these evil spirits from carrying out their plans. Prayer can also influence a chain of good fortune or good luck.

Another thing is the change in mindset, how you think also influences the chain of events in your life. You are, what you feed your mind. Feeding your mind with positivity will bring about positive fortune.

No matter what you believe, there is a force behind fortune and you can easily direct which way your fortune should go.xo

Is It Really Love?

Why do you keep holding on to someone who doesn’t value you?

Why do you keep putting their happiness first, when you can see they clearly do not care?

Why do you give your all to someone who gives you nothing?

Why do you always seem to be available for them, when they Are bored and seem to ‘need you’? Whiles they are never available when you need them?

I actually wish i knew the answers to these questions because i wouldn’t call it love. Love is to give and not expect anything back but really? I do not believe the saying “love is blind”. Your eyes still work,  your mind still works. You can tell when someone is giving you less than you actually deserve. Your brain still works even after you fall in love, don’t forget that. Fall in with your heart but go with your brain.  Use your brain, see the signs and analyze the situation.

I often hear how girls fall prey to this, and it saddens me.  People tend to lose themselves once they fall in love, forgetting who they used to be and what attracted the person to them. They want to give everything to that person and as human as we are, in almost 90% of the time your value reduces to the person.

Then you start to doubt yourself , you begin to lose your value in your own eyes. You start thinking about what happened along the way for things to have changed. You start thinking you’re worthless or probably you caused it somehow even though you clearly know you did nothing wrong.

If you know your worth and know how much you mean to those that love you, you wouldn’t settle for less. Don’t expect anyone to see your worth if you do not see it yourself. People may not be good to you, even though you’re good to them. Truth is no one owes you your happiness, you owe yourself that. You can’t change them or make them see what they don’t wanna see. Life is really difficult for the blind. You can’t be with the wrong person and expect them to do right

Yes love is a beautiful thing, but this saying is true only when it’s mutual! If it hurts, if it makes you cry, if it makes you sad,check the situation. I am not saying the journey of love has no downsides but if the downsides are more than the positive,check it.

You deserve love that is real.xo

 

Stand Out

Hey guys,

Hope everyone is doing great! Sorry I haven’t blogged in a while, I went for a conference in Pershotravensk. It’s a city in Ukraine not close to mine in anyway! I went to see my anointed spiritual father, Bishop Dag Heward-Mills!  I can’t tell you how excited I was! The last time I saw him in person was two years ago and sitting at his feet for two days was more amazing than I thought it would be! So sorry I didn’t deliver but I  am not sorry I lived in the moment!

IMG_0746Bishop Dag Heward Mills.

Today I would like to talk about standing out. To stand out means ‘someone  is conspicuous in an area because of his or her refusal to conform with the actions, opinions, desires, etc., of the majority’. Standing out is not bad at all, it makes you unique. There are different goals for different people. Usually we would want people to understand our goal and help us with it but what we fail to see is, though you might want the same goal, the path you take to the goal is different for each person.

There is nothing wrong with separating yourself from people who will not help you achieve your goal. There is nothing wrong with putting your goals first. It’s okay for you to put your personal growth first. Being accepted by the crowd doesn’t mean you’re on the right path, it can also mean you’ve just conformed to what is normal or popularly accepted.

Bishop Dag Heward-Mills is the perfect example! When he started his ministry, he was looked down upon. People disputed his anointing when he started his ministry but he didn’t give up. He stood alone and walked in the grace he was given and now he’s a pastor overseeing more than 2000 churches! Also when he started writing books, people didn’t accept that he was an author but he went ahead and obeyed God and wrote books! He is one of the best author’s around! Over 10 million books in print and translated into over 33 different languages.

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Bishop Dag with Bishop Richard Aryee, holding the Makarios(40 books related to the ministry)

Be you, set your goals and go out to conquer them!Even if you stand alone and especially when you stand alone, be happy you’re accomplishing something unique! You have it in you to reach your goal!xo